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Squall X Rinoa 4 Ever!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Wahh! It is that dream again! This is the 2nd time I dreamt of him! This time, it is more realistic

I went out with 3 friends. And of their way to their course reunion...I met him while putting my contact lens on.

And what do I do? I pretend not to see him and quickly walk out and hiding behind my friend so he could not see me. And what is so weird is that the whole thing seems so real and all decision I made is within my free will:(

And who are the three friends and HIM? Hmm...for me to know and for you to find out!

Sunday, May 30, 2010

It had been a year since I updated! lol..anyway..I just had a werid dream in the afternoon so I just decide to write down in a form of poem...

I had a dream

I was back in my old home

I had a dream

I went to my grandparent's room

I had a dream

I saw my grandmother passing you to wear something
(which I find totally werid since why the HECK you are doing in the room since my grandmother don't even know you)

I had a dream

Where you ask me if I am attending the wedding dinner later
(Which I find it werid AGAIN because why the HELL you are going to a wedding dinner with her?)

I had a dream

Where I smile and replied that I am not going(In the thoughts of my dream, because you are going so I am not)

I had a dream

Where both of us still talking and smiling

I had a dream

I leave my grandparent's room to let you change

I had a dream

I went into my brother's room

I had a dream

Where he told me you might be interested in me since he goes all the way to impress

I had a dream

Where I told my brother it is impossible since it had been quite some time ago, you rejected me

This is when I woke up

And ask myself, why the heck I am having this dream

since you are part of the past I already forget and realised that it was nothing more than a stupid crush.

But still, I find it interesting...

And who are 'you'? I don't think you know since you never read and to my friends who know, I think you know who...lol...just search for the clue I add in~_^

Thursday, August 20, 2009

I am finally rise from the dead! Well, at least my blog is. I think it has been days or even months since I updated my blog, which considered good since no one will come and read anymoreXP

Well, what happen during the past few months? In summary I had:

Finally gotten my diploma
Donated my blood
Found my first full time job (which I really really wish to resign soon...details later)
Flew to and back from Beijing in JulyXD
And, erm, finally updated my blog...lol

Ok...on with something I will tell...maybe starting from May ba...will be sketchy but hey, at least I update my unreal life situation for the past 3-4 monthsXD

Well, first for all, I would like to say that I had finally gotten my diploma after 3 years. Taking it, I feel like almost nothing leh...like a piece of paper that I don't know what should I do with it anyway..haiz...

And well, found my first job..can say is kinda boring over that but is not that job that make me feel like wanna to leave...is the people there..oh well...looks like I am not a good PR person after all..haha...

And as for my Beijing trip...I finally climb the Great Wall! Not all the way up but nevertheless, a good acoomplishment that I ever did..lol...more stories can be found in my Facebook though..all I can say is...I miss there...days where I found it quite fun...:)

And on Aug 5, I celebrate my dad's birthday at Ichiban sushi at Causeway Point, as usual, he order the same old thing sia..but I would like to add on the it was the first time in a long time that all four of us ate together..wow...

And also...on that day..it was also HIS birthday, whike part of me really wanted to wish him a happy birthday and send him gifts, however, I do not have the courage to do so since it was a long time since I talk to him...last year I guess...wish him all the best in his upcoming years

Time for me to let go though it is hard. Always been my side of story...wishing thinking...haiz

Short isn't it...nothing much to say...but oh well..I updated right?

Ta-da!

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Dancing in the rain
Feeling the raindrops on my face
Is it the raindrops or tears in my face?
I cant tell the differance anymore in the rain.

When I step into the cold room
The cold wind blast me with full force
Torturing me mentally and physically
But still, I feel nothing at all deep within the room

Maybe I am just crazy
Maybe I am feeling glad
Maybe, just maybe
I am feeling sad because I am not as sad as I imgine myself to be.

Well, I had just went and done something I think is on impulse. Oh well, its over and I think I can just move on despite feeling blue...hmm...

Man, how I wish that I can just erase everything away...

Ta-da

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Is offical! I have pass all my papers! Well, barely for my casino but hey, at least I passXD. Well, my GPA indeed drop but luckily, not too much as I expected. Threatre is a bit disappointment because I expect to get an A but got a B+ instead...oh well...at least, finally!

Bye TP! Thanks for all the memories!

Friday, February 27, 2009

Well, the examination is finally over, and now, I got around 2 weeks for me to have fun before I get my results and continue to have fun or sunk, lol

All I can say is, beside the Casino Operation, the rest of the subjects I have pretty much confident in passing, lol

Since my Casino's coursework is only a D, which I do not know if it is a D or D+, I know for my passing kinda of really at the border line. If it is a D+, all is well but if it is a really low D, like 30 or 31 marks..I die...I guess I hope my coursework D is actually 32-35.9..hopefully. Haiz, Dr Lee never put +...make me worry so much or even worrier if I know I get an actual D...haiz

And the paper itself, I guess 40 marks just out of the window...oh and by the way, you only need min. 40 marks to pass the paper...though your overall percentage must be 50%...coursework 60%...exam paper 40%...so you need why i am so worried about what kind of D I am getting...

I really hope I can pass my Casino paper so that I can get through this final sem without any worries.

And as for my GPA, all I hope that it will not drop too much through it will drop regardless, based on what I see in my coursework grade, haiz...just my luck...

Finally went to apply for NIE just now. I hope I can get short-listed for interviewing. After all, besides NIE, I did not see much on where I should go anyway...and maybe out to the workforce? Seriously speaking, I prefer to study...lol

Wish all the best to me in my results! I will update soon with some nosense stuff...for now...I need to take a well-deserved sleep...Zzzzz

Seeya!

Monday, February 09, 2009

~Waltz

The light is on her, the stage is hers. And the audiences and judges waited as she slowly began her solo performance.

As the dancer waltz across the stage, following the melody of 'Swan Lake', she began to remember that all this is for him.

That faithful night three years ago had robbed her of everything. Her partner, her lover and most importantly, her soul mate.

For three years, there was never a night that she would not miss him. For three years, there was never a night she would not cry, thinking of him.

On the tragic night, it was raining heavily. She was waiting across the street just for him. When their eyes met, she knew he was up to something. When he ran across the road to meet her, he was hit by a drunk driver.

When he flew away and landed miles away, so does her heart. She ran towards him, and all he did was hand her a tiny box that contain a ring and a eternal promise before he went to sleep forever.

And the rain continue to pour while crowds gathered. And that night, two souls were lost forever.

Their families and friends encouraged her to move on. But she refused, still clutching on the ring that he had last given to her. The ring that he promise he would give once they had finish their performance as a dancers together and leaves the dancing scene forever.

And so, she promise herself that she would win the solo performance and wear the ring on her finger instead of hanging it around her necklace like now.

Three years of hard work. Soulless body continue to push herself to the limit and she won.

The tears she shed while waltzing across the stage, and the emotion she displayed won the hearts of the judges and the audience altogether.

She did not went to collect her prize. To her, the ring she put on her ring finger after remove it from her necklace is her prize as she walk away. Feeling once happy that she had won the solo performance for him and their song.

When she walked out, it was raining heavily and she began to remember that night. As she walked aimlessly towards the red light, she too, met the same fate as her soul mate three years ago.

She felt no pain, only the feel of someone catching her from behind and she twirl around, a true smile formed as she asked

"You finally catch me"

"Didn't I promised?"

But to the amazed onlookers, the dancer that just died in the fatal car accident had a smile on her face when she died.

And their families buried her next to him. And while they are visiting, two butterflies flew past them, twirling around with each other. And to their joy and the bittersweet tears formed,
what they saw was;

The two lovers finally reunite together. Dancing their endless waltz together with a smile on their face at their own heaven.

---Waltz by cheerlygal. Inspired by the song, 一千零一夜 ( A thousand and one night, and hence, the rough estimate of three years) and the dancing scene of Squall and Rinoa in Final Fantasy VIII

This is my vision every time I listen to this song. It is a bittersweet ending and the characters I always had in my mind is Squall and Rinoa. I love happy ending of them but for this song, bittersweet sounded better.

And maybe one day, I will come up with the version on how the song relate to me. Just maybe. For now, just enjoy the rough storyline that purely based on the song itself. While some may argue that it may not fit, to me, it is just perfect. After all, different people have different imagination.